We’ve updated our Terms of Use to reflect our new entity name and address. You can review the changes here.
We’ve updated our Terms of Use. You can review the changes here.

BUD

by soft idiot

supported by
lonli gost
lonli gost thumbnail
lonli gost This is Justin's best release yet. The unique background textures and honest lyrics provide all the feels. Favorite track: golden heart.
/
  • Streaming + Download

    Includes high-quality download in MP3, FLAC and more. Paying supporters also get unlimited streaming via the free Bandcamp app.
    Purchasable with gift card

      name your price

     

1.
cigarette 01:54
tonight i smoked a cigarette and then i smoked another while i was thinking about you we both know that this won't work it really sucks and its gonna hurt for a while but it'll get better thought that i would die with you now i don't know what to do but i'll figure it out and you'll figure it out life is short but we are young there's so much that could happen maybe i'll see you someday
2.
email 01:36
3.
you were confused i was confusing you were bruised i was bruising there is no easy way out i come from the ground you float in the air you don't come down i only stare there is no easy way out
4.
skeletons 02:27
not tomorrow night but the next when we are strangers out of context and we see each other bare after our feelings have been made clear i will write everything down every movement and every sound and search my notes for something new to explain what keeps me away from you when i leave my room that night and it is 20 degrees outside i will shiver and you will too not from the cold but from another human when our skin is stripped away and our skeletons remain you will notice we are the same we are the same
5.
the patron saint of mediocrity hangs overhead floats above me i know i know i let myself down the patron saint of mediocrity hangs overhead lives inside of me and i know i know i let myself down
6.
golden heart 02:58
i didn't ask cuz i didn't know where it comes from or where it goes and you don't look at me in the eye in silence what are you gonna find a lived in golden heart that was worn out from the start i'm sorry that i moved in and broke it all apart and we can do that anymore but every other day i'm no sure and you don't look at me in the eye for how long have you felt like dying? a lived in golden heart that was worn out from the start i'm sorry that i moved in and broke it all apart but days turn into weeks and the weeks turn into months but nothing moves as fast as the time spent in love
7.
rose 01:38
every little instance is like pulling teeth and everything collapses like the bed in which we sleep white noise closing in fills up the silence you remind me of forever and youth that never got to grow and the roses in your cheeks remain buds forever more white noise closing in fills up the silence as the feelings in my throat close up my sinus there was nothing i could do to keep it from drowning you
8.
<3 00:46
9.
ghost cop 03:33
so you've found me out i'm an adult of nothing but doubt do you remember going to school with nothing to do but follow rules i remember a swimming pool in summer outside of my mom's house where nothing ever mattered now i can't be alone and i find comfort in getting stoned i can't seem to get it right i get so lonely sometimes i feel like dying i remember the leaves changing colors and driving home from school beneath orange covers all our friends crammed into a midsize driving up and down our streets after midnight
10.
when i'm alone i think about the person i'd like to be but am not yet and it kills me how everything's static how everything's lonely along with me i want a connection that i will never have this deafening silence is the perfect soundtrack to getting drunk alone in my basement so i will listen and i will vomit when nothing is near anything i want i want a connection that i will never have i want separation cuz nothing will last
11.
over 02:26
walk slow don't get ahead of yourself stay away from the things that make you feel like that but what am i to do when everything around is worn and burned out i can't get out of bed the things you were given in love don't feel like they belong to you anymore so what do you do? shut everything off leave your door open stay in bed all day
12.
i haven't slept since early yesterday morning and i am so tired we're watching tv in the living room while someone upstairs is crying and screaming i haven't felt like myself in weeks and everything feels fake like a cover and everything is fine the screaming is fine the crying is fine this house is burning down with me inside and everything is fine

about

this album is for all of my friends who helped me through a really shitty year

credits

released July 2, 2016

all music written and recorded by justin roth
cover art by hannah baronak

license

all rights reserved

tags

about

soft idiot Philadelphia, Pennsylvania

philadelphia indie rock folk and etc.
the world gets smaller

photo by vito scutti

contact / help

Contact soft idiot

Streaming and
Download help

Redeem code

Report this album or account

soft idiot recommends:

If you like soft idiot, you may also like: